9/7/22
well i did not keep up with this, it's been 8 months. i went to an mcr concert on monday!!! it was postponed forever cuz of covid but it finally happened and i got to go! it was amazing getting off the subway and immediately seeing this huge crowd of emos all going the same place we were. it's the first time i've ever gone somewhere and actually fit in, because everyone there dressed like me. i miss it already. the concert was incredible too. waterparks opened for them and gerard waved at me!!!!! and i got a shirt and a waterparks cd. singing the chorus of teenagers to gerard alongside the entire rest of the audience was like a religious experience. 10 thousand people who all Get It, and i got to be one of them. also gerard was dressed as a cat and i am so glad i got to see that happen in person. next time they have a show near me i am going to that too. no question. there's nothing else like it, at least that ive ever experienced. also awsten beat an audece member at rock paper scissors and yelled YES!! FUCK YOU, I WIN!!!! which was really funny. i'm gonna listen to more waterparks now i think.
feeling: lonely
1/29/22
finally finished my essay, thank god for that. i have three more assignments but they arent due until late february so i'm good for now. i have more free time now that that's finished so maybe i'll start filling out some of the blank pages on here. my brother's girlfriend has covid so we all have to quarantine now but it's not like i go out anyways. my joints have been hurting more. maybe i'll start taking piano lessons again.
feeling: relieved
1/28/22
i'm back! if only to put off my essay some more. probably not the best idea considering i now have 2 and a half hours to write six pages and nothing started. honestly the most intimidating part of it is the citations, if i didn't need that i could bullshit this easy. i'll probably just write about poetry or something so the source material is short and easy to look through. honestly i'm just kind of scared of this project though, i'll be glad when its over. i'm kind of enjoying the journaling aspect of this blog so i'll probably be back once this is done.
feeling: anxious
1/25/22
idk how much im gonna update this but its here! i have an essay due soon but im making this website to put it off
feeling: stressed